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"Grandma... take me with you."
"Silly boy. You have your own life to live. At least you wouldn't have to put your dreams on hold anymore, on account of me. So do what you want. You have lived your life for me, this time..."
"I hope you live for yourself."
"That... other grandson of mine, maybe you can save him?"
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Kim Dan woke up with cold sweat on his back. He steadied his breathing and decided to get a glass of water to soothe his parched throat. The wind blew in from the opened windows and he shivered, before closing the windows and drawing the curtains.
He hasn't dreamed of his grandma ever since she died - and only for her to tell him to watch over her other grandson?
Grandma, we're not even from the same family. He doesn't need anyone, much less anyone to save him, but he did save me when I was in trouble.
I already paid him back, because money's the only thing I can give him, even if he doesn't need it.
For him, I'm only someone dispensable and replaceable. Our paths have crossed and diverged - grandma, we were never meant to meet.
Knowing that sleep was going to evade him, Kim Dan went up his rooftop and sat down, staring at the COVID rapid test that was turning up positive. With a sigh, he sent an email notification to the island head and supervisor, informing them that the doctor was going on isolation.
It was my both my fortune and jinx to have met you.
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"Hyung, did you see Doctor Dan's Moments?"
"Not yet. What happened?"
The two pressed their heads closed together, unaware that someone who should be sleeping was listening in on them.
What happened?
I just left.
Can't he take care of himself?
Joo Jaekyung snorted.
I mean, I'm done. I've already found him, he's alive, and he walked away from being employed by me. I've done enough, my questions are answered so what more do I need?
I don't need him.
I can be without him just fine.
He was the one who pushed me away this time.
He was the one who walked out first.
***
Kim Dan was in his 3rd day of isolation when his doorbell rang. He was too lazy to stand up,and he knew that the delivery person would leave what he ordered at the door. The doorbell kept buzzing though, and Kim Dan thought it was one the things he bought online. He padded down the rooftop and opened the door without much thought when someone rammed into him hard,knocking the air put of him.
Before he could shout and call for help, his hands had been pinned by one hand on the wall behind him and the assailant was ravaging his mouth. Sometimes it was soft and gentle, but most of the time, the kisses were overbearing.
Joo Jaekyung had kissed him senseless, but Kim Dan did not stop struggling.
"LET- MMF - GO! Joo Jaekyung! Let me - mmff - haa, haa - GO!"
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Joo Jaekyung choked him and held him up high, until he had tears and snot running down his face. His feet dangled as he swung them, looking for a foothold. He was starting to see spots, his vision going dark, before Joo Jaekyung carried him to one of the bedrooms and slammed him down on the bed. Before he could bounce off, Joo Jaekyung's body was already pressing down between his legs, and he ripped the doctor's shirt off. Joo Jaekyung leaned down and sucked on one of the doctor's nipples, while he pinched and pulled the other one.
Kim Dan hated it - his own weakness, his powerlessness, and his traitorous body that had been tainted and trained by Joo Jaekyung's touch. He bit down on his lips, supressing his moans until they bled, and it wasn't he felt the cool air between his legs that his head cleared up a little.
His eyes wide in horror, Kim Dan struggled with renewed vigor, but Joo Jaekyung was just too strong. A soundless scream as he felt something tear, and Joo Jaekyung had sheathed himself in Kim Dan without lubrication nor preparation.
There was no gentleness at all, only the carnal desire to satiate lust.
Kim Dan hated how Joo Jaekyung knew all his sensitive spots. Why does he remember what makes my toes curl? Why does he know where it feels best?
WHY IS HE SO DAMN BIG, MY INSIDES FEEL LIKE THEY'RE ABOUT TO RIP.
I hate myself the most because it feels good.
Kim Dan, he knows where to touch because he has practice, but all you know are your moments with him. You won't be his first, last, or only. You're just another body count.
****
Making love?
I don't need that.
All I need is someone to f*ck.
Joo Jaekyung pistoned himself with reckless abandon - this feeling, this power, this control - he missed this. Too caught up in his euphoria, it wasn't until he had emptied the last of his load in the doctor that he realized he wasn't moving.
The doctor had his back to him, the rise and fall of his back the only indication that he was still breathing. Joo Jaekyung finally pulled out, and that was when he saw that the excess load dripping out of the doctor's abused hole had tinges of red and pink mixed in.
Joo Jaekyung roughly turned the doctor around and his heart suddenly felt stuffy. The doctor was unconscious, but his face still bore an expression of pain and discomfort - his brows furrowed, his eyes were tightly closed, his cheeks full of tear streaks, his lips bruised and bloody.
What shocked Joo Jaekyung was the marks that he had made on the doctor - his wrists were raw and red, his palms had crescent shaped nail marks when he must have clenched his fists to bear the pain, his body was filled with mottled marks of red and almost purple bite marks, love bites, and bruises.
He almost looked as bad as when he was attacked by the loan sharks, but Joo Jaekyung made these marks himself.
So you will know who you belong to, doc.
When Joo Jaekyung touched the expanse of the doctor's abdomen and found his hand sticky despite his rough handling, it gave him a sense of fulfillment and triumph that despite how he treated him and how long they weren't in contact,he can still make the doctor release.
You're still as weak as the day I first screwed you, doc.
And just as sensitive.
And just as fragile.
"... Doc?"
Joo Jaekyung patted his cheek to make him wake up.
"Kim Dan?"
Joo Jaekyung wanted to smoothen Kim Dan's furrowed brows, but when his palm touched his forehead, he realized Kim Dan was burning up.
Kim Dan groaned, then shifted himself to a fetal position, as he shivered and kept saying "Go away", "Leave me alone", "It hurts", "Stop it".
"Joo Jaekyung, I hate you," he muttered.
Joo Jaekyung quickly rose up and glared at the small figure that was doing his best to take up lesser space.
***
If Kim Dan's inner demon had a name, it would be Joo Jaekyung.
And unfortunately, it was also the name of the demon in the nightmarish relity he was in that refused to let go of him.
As much as Kim Dan wanted to never wake up, he knew that the faster he can solve the problem, the better it would be.
But would it be alright if he slept just a bit more? The cold that had seeped deep within his bones had been expelled.
"Warm," Kim Dan mumbled softly, not knowing how he buried deeper in Joo Jaekyung's embrace, and how the latter's eyes for a brief moment, seemed to soften as he gathered the smaller man into his arms, kissing his forehead devoutly.
