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Joo Jaekyung swore that he doesn't care what happens to Kim Dan.
He wasn't worried.
But he realized that when it came to Kim Dan, his body doesn't listen.
When he arrived at the airport, he went to the airlines office and booked a ticket back to where Kim Dan was. There were fewer flights and the fastest one still had a layover period, but he didn't care.
"I still have a month before this season starts. I'll be there, but right now I have to be somewhere else," Joo Jaekyung explained in a rare moment of patience.
"Fine, but make sure you do get here on time."
Donggyun and Jiwon glanced at Joo Jaekyung's retreating back, as he made his way towards the departure area.
"He's still an idiot but at least he's making a move. I hope the doctor won't let him in easy," Jiwon muttered.
"I agree, I should have made it harder for you, hyung."
"... No, no it was already very hard," Jiwon bent down and kissed Donggyun stealthily.
"It's just once you found what you're looking for, even if the mind forgets, the body will remember."
"Don't you mean the heart?"
"The heart is part of the body."
"... Hyung, are you going rhetorical on me?"
"... You do know when it comes to you, I'd lose gladly, as long as I don't lose you."
* * * * * * * *
You know I love you.
If you don't want to end up like those weaklings, you have to learn how to fight.
When you have power, everything else follows: money, fame, even love.
When you have power, you have the strength to protect.
But if you only have love... heh...
Love is a sign of weakness.
Until you have power, don't entertain such fanciful thoughts.
I mean look at those weaklings getting loved by different patrons.
Look how they broke.
You're different from them.
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Joo Jaekyung rubbed his temples as the landing announcement sounded. He didn't have that dream for a while.
Love makes people weak.
Loving someone is a weakness that can be exploited.
When Joo Jaekyung arrived at the island, he saw a man carrying supplies and groceries entering the doctor's clinic.
He just left and suddenly he has someone else?
Joo Jaekyung waited until the man left, before storming over and pressing the doorbell. When the doctor opened the door, Joo Jaekyung pushed Kim Dan in and cornered him towards the wall, trapping those alluring lips with his. He deepened it, thrusting his tongue in, savoring the taste of the doctor.
Why is he struggling so much?
I could feel the bulge between his legs when I pressed myself on him.
Why are you denying me?
How dare you leave first, and act like this?
This thought angered Joo Jaekyung so much so that he lifted Kim Dan up by choking him.
Beg.
Beg for me, Kim Dan.
Stop your useless struggle, you're no match for me.
So if he's not your match, why are you here?
He threw Kim Dan on the bed and pressed down on him. He tore off the doctor's clothes, leaving him bare for the taking.
And Joo Jaekyung did take him - relentlessly, without preparation, hesitation, and permission.
This marked one of the worst mistakes Joo Jaekyung had ever done in his life.
In the same instant when Kim Dan also realized that the worst mistake he ever did was to love a demon in the human skin, with the name Joo Jaekyung.
Like a small boat in the midst of a storm, untethered and at the mercy of the waves, Kim Dan was flipped, turned over, and plunged in again and again and again.
He begged for mercy.
He begged.
He begged for release.
Let it end.
Or end me.
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Joo Jaekyung gazed down at the state he had put the doctor in.
He made him like this.
So why does my chest feel heavy?
Was it something I ate?
Or my lack of sleep?
With a sigh, he lifted Kim Dan with unprecedented gentleness and patience, as he brought him to the bathroom to wash him down. The doctor was still and so silent, and he was shivering, but he was also burning up.
Joo Jaekyung quickly washed the marks of their activity off, his lower body reacting to the excess juice dripping off Kim Dan's abused hole. He poked a finger in and Kim Dan visibly flinched, so he quickly scooped what he could before pulling his fingers out.
Joo Jaekyung frowned at the blood he found.
Was the doctor too tight or too sensitive?
Was I too rough?
He dried them both off, before letting Kim Dan wear one of his shirts, leaving his bottom half exposed. He laid him down on the couch first, as he made quick work of changing the bed sheets and frowning at the red marks that dotted the sheets. They seem to be indelible marks accusing him of... something.
What an eyesore.
He rummaged his luggage and pulled out a cooling pad, sticking it on Kim Dan's forehead. He once more gathered him in his arms as he laid him on the bed, then pulled him closer, but all he could here was Kim Dan's rejection. He was about to take him again when Kim Dan suddenly cuddled closer to him, like a little animal seeking warmth in winter.
Joo Jaekyung sighed as he kissed Kim Dan's forehead and spooned him.
Why do you keep saying such heartless words?
Why can't you be more obedient?
I'm here, aren't I?
Don't push me away, Kim Dan.
Don't ask me to leave.
Don't leave.
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Kim Dan didn't want to wake up.
The real Joo Jaekyung was scary, but the one in his fevered dream was strangely not.
He still frowned a lot, but the way he was treated was as if he meant something to his former employer.
His kisses were light, as if they were afraid of waking him up.
The way he was held was an awkward position for Joo Jaekyung, but it gave him the most comfort - he could feel a part of Joo Jaekyung getting harder and warmer, but Joo Jaekyung just said, "How troublesome," as he felt his warmth enveloping him.
It was so warm and real that Kim Dan cried.
The Kim Dan in his dream could meet and talk with his grandma.
The Kim Dan in his dream almost feels like he was loved and treasured by Joo Jaekyung.
I don't want to wake up, I don't want to wake up, I don't want to wake up -
Joo Jaekyung was alarmed that Kim Dan was crying again. As Kim Dan opened his eyes, dream and reality overlapped as both Joo Jaekyungs said the same thing.
"Don't cry, Kim Dan. I'm sorry."
